Life as a Student Nurse...

So...life has been choo chooing along, all the while I spend my days in scrubs, and my evenings with books surrounding me. I have attempted to sit back and enjoy a few days here and there, but it does not always happen, and most of the time...it should not happen, because I have to remember that school is my main focus right now.
Clinicals have become more intense and now take up 12hours of my Thursday's and I spend about 95% of that time on my feet, so I have to say that I am looking forward to my massage scheduled for May 12th (my last day of block 2). :) I also have to mention that I had my first "I feel like I am going to faint" spell yesterday! I have never had it happen, definitely not that bad before, and I really don't know how it happended either. I have stood in on two full (blood splattering, bones being sawed off)...sorry for the graphics...surgeries, but I guess the intense male nurse violently trying to insert an IV in a patient, who no one else could get an IV in, really did me in. I started to feel slightly "off" and decided to head out to the hall. As soon as I sat down I had a HUGE hot flash, started sweating like no other, got nauseous, and began to walk quickly down the hall since someone was in the only bathroom on our floor. As I raced down the hall I was praying so hard that I would not hit the floor as I began to black out. Thankfully I made it to the bathroom and plopped down on the toilet with my head in my hands. I eventually started to come to, but MAN...it was not the most fun experience. I survived though and actually made myself lay on the couch that night and watch 3 full hours of tv! :)
So...my question to myself is why does it take an "almost" fainting spell to make myself relax one night out of the week? I will try harder for relaxation from now on...